The last time I posted was March and I'm so shamed myself. I am so trash and I'm going to do better.
I normally try to post every year on my birthday, but I didn't this time. I turned 30 on May 21st.
I wanted to bring in my 30s right and get out of Cincinnati for once. My sister and I went to New Orleans. It was my first time there and it's such a beautiful, resilient city. The food, the people, the architecture, the history, the culture, all of it was amazing and I definitely plan on going back. It was hot as all get out, but I enjoyed my time there. It took a lot of long hours to be able to save for that trip, but it was worth it.
While we were riding around NOLA, my sister gave me a mini pep talk about being deserving and she said, "No buts!". Acknowledge who you are and what you are without any 'buts". Don't detract from what you've done. I really needed to hear that. I love my sister to death. No matter what happens, my sister has always been there for me. If nobody else understands me, I know she does and I thank God for her. I can go on rants about things I'm passionate about or vent about how frustrated I am and there's no judgment.
I'm not where I would like to be in certain aspects of my life, but this year hasn't been terrible. It's been a lot better than 2017 and for that, I'm grateful.
During the last couple of months leading up to my 30th birthday, I did some reflecting and made some promises to myself.
"Try not to get so overwhelmed that you get stuck and stop (I'm still working on that and it's so hard). Your time is coming. The same way you turned things around at 20, you will at 30 too. It's okay to be down sometimes, but you have a purpose. Some days you may think you know your purpose, other days you'll second guess it. It's all a process."
I started writing this post 2 months ago and I'm just now posting it because of self-doubt, stress from my wack job and so on. I'm so critical of myself about this whole writing thing that I don't even give myself a chance to just do it and let it go. Whenever I write, I feel better so I want to make an effort to do it more just because of that. Closed mouths don't get fed so I have to work on not having several posts sitting in my drafts for months at a time.
I even challenged myself and joined this Biggest Loser contest at work in an effort to hold myself accountable and actually lose weight for real this time. I'm trying to be fake skinny for my 31st birthday and I have 9 months to make that happen. We just had our first weigh-in on September 5 to get started. I'm still figuring out what I want to tweak in my diet and figure out the best way to incorporate fitness. I'll probably share all of that here and on social media, so be on the lookout for that.
I just wanted to let you guys know I'm still here like Tisha Campbell-Martin and I promise not to be gone for so long from now on.